Friday, December 2, 2011

Talk Band to me

It has been 18 months since my surgery. I am down more than 120 lbs and feel great. I have ups and I have downs but in the end there is weight I will never get back.

I saw an article today about Rex Ryan the Jets Coach who had lap band surgery. He touts how he gets indigestion and overeats. Hmm...then he says the band doesn't always work. Well, Mr. Ryan maybe you are not working WITH the band. If you continue to overeat and ignore the warnings from your band you will continue to have problems and low weight loss. That really burns me. Why does someone in the limelight have to give such negative publicity to a surgical procedure that can work if used properly?

I have times where I am frustrated but never do I doubt what this band has done for me. I am healthier, happier and more active. Granted I still don't exercise but all in all I am doing great. I can't imagine my life before. I just want to forget about my lack of self confidence.

I have changed in so many ways. I have social phobia. I have anxiety attacks in crowds or if I am the center of attention, hence, giving a speech would send me into overload and a meltdown. Yesterday I went to Bingo by myself. I didn't talk to anyone there but had a nice quiet time just enjoying the day.
I also can't walk in late to any function. I have to arrive super early so no one notices me. I get anxiety when I perceive myself to be the center of attention, like walking into a crowded room after the event has started, everyone turns to look. OMG I nearly throw up. That is changing for me. Still I have the anxiety but not on the level it once was.

What has the band done for you? I am interested, let me know.


FitBy40 said...

I keep trying to leave you comments and get an error here I go trying again! Let's see if this works.

♫ Drazil ♪ said...

I could have written the last two paragraphs...I feel you girl.

Angie said...

yay it seems the comments posting is working...for now...